man this is crazy
four months, and then im out of here. mcmaster goodbye, grand and pivotal adventures hello!
hopefully this means more education, but it could be a whole new everything. i guess i shouldn't expect that much.
change is difficult to deal with, especially when it seems to be the kind that just pulls you further and further back. however, i don't know if there is a forward and backward anymore. just different rooms in a one story house, and endless maze of dead ends that you have to decide on where to go. like in alice in wonderland, doors upon doors upon doors for her to choose and continue her "trip". the solution right now is not to do acid or anything, but just to go through these doors with the energy and zest that i have always used to describe myself.
it's scary as fuck though.