so I wrote them down, 
as they came to me 
trickled out one by one
even two by two. 
there they were, 
a list of travel destinations
commitments to love myself
and skills to accumulate.
then i started to lay out plans
fancy, intricate plans that seemed more like an 
impossible machine 
rather than a dream .
all of a sudden, my perfectly packed bags
they fell open in the middle of a train and/or bus station. 
(i can't quite remember, i was in hysterics). 
and I didn't quite realize, 
but I had to quickly accept
that dreams and reality collide at frightening speeds. 
here i go, packing my bags again
trying to find one of those dreams
written down years ago, 
relics of an overactive mind.
