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ship wrecks and birds

the following images document a sunday morning spent riding a bike, and exploring the different beauties that make up the kingston harbour.
they signify a particular obsession of mine with nautical things (boats, clothing, knots) , landscapes and birds...

these few weeks

okay, so recently i went to the big Ottawa.

the capital/epicentre of Canada's big time federal politics.
it seemed politicians would poor out of everywhere, and were as friendly as any other human bean (interesting?)
i saw stephen harper in the flesh, and his set of charicature like ministers.

i've been slowly working away on some mail items. however...so slowly i seem to be forgetting .. . . in the next week i will start sending out a slew of things. aka next weekend i have no midterms to study for (wild?)

this week for school has been unbelievably intense. lived through it ! i think...

i n any case, i have a whole new slew of things to do work/homework. i think i can start counting down to school break - 6 weeks left!

see you soon

friday night skype

a pleb can't just fuck missy elliot - jg.

on a quiet monday

sit there in the grass
feet first.

listen closely to the soft wind,
ripples of the waves and,
the swish of rustling leaves.

this is a peace made between you,
and the universe to finally
just listen

today is tuesday - TUESDAY IS YOUR DAY!

in the grocery store, i realised for me shopping is not just about the food
its also about the incredulous amount of staring i do at people (and good looking men)

biking is great until you hit some sort of 70 km/h city road way ... by accident.

i love dogs so much that one randomly jumped on me today and i thought it was cute and not scary.


i really love libraries. the caffeine-smell-free-noise-free space they provide is wonderful.

queen's is some sort of academic dream land. where giants live but no one really knows who they are. (ie. my profs are kind of a big deals ---- in there field...but no one else gives a ... you know...)

i feel refreshed. today is the last day of a group of great days. looks like raiiiiiiiiin in the future.

my feet smell. i should fix that. . .

i need to do laundry - desperately. okay not that desperately...
but still...

<3 i hope your days are great.

bedroom blabbing

so okay

i have been absent from the blogosphere. to the upset of some (one) of my readers(mostly reader).


basically - i have done a lot of reading, writing, talking, running and biking. lots of cooking and creating (which is proving to be a weekly show that my neighbours like to watch me do/partake in)

i baked oatmeal cookies with apricots this week (from a mix ... 'from scratch' is a relative term no?)

i am learning that living on campus is great but annoying at times. no commute is 100% better than a long commute. although, i do miss coming down the mountain or coming up the mountain - such a beautiful view.

i am never overly tired, but constantly busying myself.
dedicated to work, and homework i seem to always find things to volunteer for, read, or just get lost in. i like it that way. a solitary journey through my mind and body formulates along this meandering journey.

currently, i owe a lot of people mail - about 5 i think is a rough estimate. i am so thankful that i have some lovely friends who like to create and write to me. so lucky!

i don't think i have time for deep retrospective thought as much as i would like to... i do a lot of dancing (my room is just big enough ... save for when i attempt to do cart wheels and hit my foot).

at times i feel deathly lonely, and just want to hug my mom and dad. i call them on skype, but it's not the same.
however, there is a spirit of hope , change and progress that i get from queen's which is really nice. it seems like i could go far with my program/hopes/dreams just with a little effort here and there.

on monday, i have a meeting with a professor i am doing research for. it's going to be tough to balance everything - but i thnk i can manage.

life is good, i am happy at queen's and, as i have returned this thanksgiving weekend to hamilton - i was sorely reminded of why i wanted to leave in the first place and...why i wanted to stay.

<3

10 dreams in no particular order

so I wrote them down,
as they came to me
trickled out one by one
even two by two.

there they were,
a list of travel destinations
commitments to love myself
and skills to accumulate.

then i started to lay out plans
fancy, intricate plans that seemed more like an
impossible machine
rather than a dream .

all of a sudden, my perfectly packed bags
they fell open in the middle of a train and/or bus station.
(i can't quite remember, i was in hysterics).

and I didn't quite realize,
but I had to quickly accept
that dreams and reality collide at frightening speeds.


here i go, packing my bags again
trying to find one of those dreams
written down years ago,
relics of an overactive mind.

mountains and parks and a kitten

beach bums, and petting zoos

more st. henri things

survey of graffiti (in st. henri) and a bird

keep

keep fallin'
until you fall into the right place.

i feel like this is a good metphor for life.


never have i fell so hard than this year
it seemed that i have fallen 100 times
but
now i know i am in the right place.

thanks montreal.

all of us

remember when we saw her?

this was the first time i heard this song, and it was beautiful.
i miss you.

meandering and pubic art (okay public! )

sappy

i want to go to sappy fest!


should i go? i think so.

now i just have to figure how to get there...
sap sap sapparooni

graduation

i am days way from graduating university.
weird as fuck.

i am in montreal still, and will be returning late wednesday night to hamiltonia.
right now i am trying to figure out if i could or should go running. the skies here look perpetually ominous, and it never seems to rain enough. i mean, when it rains its just sort of like this light pattery thing. rather than an intense watershed, as if the angels were REALLY crying. just kidding, i hope angels are not crying.

anyway, i don't mind the rain. i've spent most of it indoors, or dealing with it when i am outdoors. no big deal, right?

hmmmm i went to a farmer's market here today, and it was def moroccan-ified. i had merguez (arabic sausage), and chibakya (honey flavoured desert). i was compeltely in awe for like 20 minutes, before i sat down and had to decipher what the heck i wanted to buy. i ended up buying lots of veggies...it was so easy!!! don't blame me.

i have to do my laundry, but i'd rather go running at the moment which I am fairly certain I will be doing in the next few minutes.

and to the open roads i take!
byeee

la vie

montreal so farrr

Montreal has been beautiful. The food is excellent, the people are nice, and everyday is some new grand adventure for me. My roomate likes to wish me a good adventure every time I leave the house, to highlight how much excitement I reap from just being outdoors.

My roomies are sweet, cool, and funny people. Gotta luv em'!
My job is rad, lots of events, and people to meet. Also, random free food which is always a yes!

My neighbourhood is bumpin' As June begins, I can feel the energy of a new festival season. The other day as I was walking home, there was a girl performing in the window of an eyeglasses shop. I really don't know why this optical store was chosen, but it created a really strange spectacle (looking out, and looking in, glasses everywhere...).

Right now I am trying to start up a knit night, even though I lack any talent...I figure I will just use my talent for organizing to get shit together. It'd be sweet, non?

That's the other thing, I nervously use my french and try to soak up as much as I can. Although, quebecois musique seems to be entirely melodramatic which I can't stand. There are other ways to soak er' up...poetry readings I somewhat understand, and books and just listening to people talk. Hopefully my brain is the spongey apparatus it is cracked up to be...

In two weeks, I am graduating McMaster University. I feel like my life has moved past McMaster but I know I am going to very much miss it...eventually. More than anything, I am going to miss the familiarity and the beautiful campus. Mac was pretty sexy, and not to mention all the wonderful people I spent time with that made it was. Can't nobody be like you friends !

Anyway,
I should finish drinking my $3.00 tea...and my portuguese donut hahaah

quote of the week

'i was more intellectually challenged by my shadow' - s.p.

what a lady, and what a quote!

one more day

alright

got my clothes
got my back pack
packed
toiletries
sheets? pillows?

what else should i pack?

not much i guess...golly do i ever have a lot of thingz...i brought too many pairs of shoes. feet have to be covered though!

...
hmmm

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how's that workin' out for ya?

okay so besides baking i have been job hunting, dreaming, crocheting (CROTCH!), cleaning, watching 20 + episodes of the Real World (Las Vegas 2011 and the ORIGINAL SAN FRAN), watching more useless television, volunteering, hanging out, reading books, saying by to friends (not for good ;), crossing my fingers - toes - eyes - and heart!, and trying to enjoy this indefinite/suspended amount of free time.

ALSO i listen to broadcasts of This American Life hosted by Ira Glass. I found this by accident, and have fallen in into intellectual love with it! Such great reflections, and thoughts.

hows that wo

how's that workin' out for ya?

m

what have i been doing?

baked pita bread, ricotta cheese with jam on top.
derish!

a birthday to remember

happy bird-day carly!

these are the photos from your vegan-friendly shin dig.

buy aly's shit !

My friend Alyson is heading off to a far-away-place and she needs some funds to help her get there.

Buy her art!

Link: http://thegirlwhoownstheworld.tumblr.com/

shhhhhelly my dad says

when you work hard the result is always Axcellent! - the grammatically correct version of my dad's quote of the day.

- forgotten dreams

okay so lately i love slam poetry
this is one i found today

it's about doing what you want rather than chasing ambition. at this age, it feels like all i have to do is chase ambition. when i just want to live.

let's make promises to live.

will power

one more exam left in university
job interview friday to work in sudbury
money from queen's
things are looking cheery.

:) thank you cosmos. thank you!

wanderlust

wanderlust
wanderlust
wanderlust

(please satisfy my wanderlust)

alyz beatz lamanez

so this was probably
the most awkward concert we could have ever been to
simply because,
we are the least legit people on the market.

except, we have the (as of yet) unfulfilled ambitions to be rappers.

i remember we danced, and made up an epic dance move that i am pretty sure
is going to catch on...i am pretty sure.
what a wonderful evening.

regardless, that dance party put the 'super' in supercrawl 2010.

para kat

1) it is on your td cd
2) i sang it to you when you won an award
3) it's featured on glee
4) we both know all the words to it, and manage to play or sing it at every social gathering we attend together.
5) i text you almost every time i hear it on the radio.


enuf said.

carly's song

i think you sent this to me on msn one day
it was on your myspace for a while

post-juno fame is the ultimate (just look at ellen paige)

you made me a mixed cd with all her songs on it
i still have it.

we listened to all kinds of songs that year, i remember something about 'nails'
and...maybe we watched a video about periods.

<3

dear john g.

i think this is a start of the songs that 'make me think of you' series. unofficially (its unofficial so i don't actually have to fulfill this goal if i don't want to)

john g.

you loved this song
i was a working girl (full-time and shit)
we were walking
man were we ever walking
from one end of the city to another
we ended of my dog joes (pre-mulberry times in 2007)
your shoes, they were cute
but my god did they ever make your feet cry
man did they ever cry.

walk on, we will.
will is the emphasis
because boy
do i ever love the john you've become.

forever friends.

<3

don't you

you wonder why you stressed at all

Chinese Qualifacations For Friendship

超过两条就是一辈子的朋友:

1、睡过同一张床
2、穿过一样的衣服
3、穿过对方的衣服
4逛街买回来的东西竟然一样
5一起哭过笑过
6一起出去旅游
7、彼此羡慕对方
8互相认识至少5年
9都喜欢拿对方开玩笑
10家里人都知道TA的名字
11、吵过嘴，干过仗，但依然很铁儿
12难受伤心的时候第一个想和对方倾诉。

En Anglais:

If the answer is yes to more than two of the following, it's meant to be friends forever:

1. have slept in the same bed
2. have worn the same clothes
3.have worn each other's clothes
4.bought the exact same clothes when shopping together
5. have cried and laughed together
6.have traveled together
7. have been jealous of each other
8. have know each other for at least 5 years
9. like to make fun of the other person
10. family knows of her/him
11. have been through fights, big and small, and yet still closer than ever
12.when feeling down, the first person want to complain to

-Thanks Annie Tang

<3
Nesreen

starting my rapping career

half wishing for a romeo
is not the way to go

what'do ya think !?

'bro's before hoes read the guidelines' - Emily Haines

Turns out Haines has got the rap bug too.....

trend alert!

PLLLLLLEASE

cross your fingers

i am wishing for yukon gold,
the twenty-one hours of sunshine pendand l'ete

finishing school
getting into another school

love as usual

my family!

friendship

manatees

endless adventure

p'as vraiment morte

Live through this, and you won't look back...

- tattoo idea?!

dew

do the best that you can do.

there are always things you can't control
but those things you have the power to change , perfect make the best.

do not hesitate to make them the best that you possibly can.

ha-ha-heart

sounds like a good idea...

runaway

step 1) establish why you are running
step 2) find a place with decent food and shelter
step 3) tell four important people why you are leaving
step 4) get the fuck out.

more than anything right now, i just want to pack a bag and just run as fast as i can (bus, train or plane assisted of course).

at this moment the farthest i could get is Toronto (not exactly ideal).

toooooo bad barbados isn't closer.

princey-pulls

what are principles?
do they matter?

wellllll today i realised they only seem to matter when you fighting for them.
all of sudden, you have these principals you must defend .

i keep wondering what mine are...but they are hard to pin point.
i mean i try to be a generous person by principle, but am i really?

get what i am saying?
i am going to go sleep now

moral of the story

Resentment, is the reverse side of dependence: when one gives all, one never receives enough in return. - Simone De Beauvoir (in The Second Sex Pg 606)

don't expect to get back what you give to someone back in equal or greater portions.
they never will fill those expectations however, some can come pretty damn close. i should, say once you let go of those expectations you realize how wonderful each person can be.

- just a thought for this wintery day.

ssssss-inermann

pas le fin du monde

struggles
marks
people
relationships
time
money
life...

its not the end of the world, just another day in a lesson in learning.